Monday, January 01, 2007

Personal thoughts on the New Year.

I hate new years like some people hate birthdays. Learning to accept a new calendar year as the norm, forces me to accept that life is passing by. This new year seems particularly cruel.

2006 was for me an "Annus Horribilis". A year with very little joy and with much anxiety and grief. A year that started with hopes of finally finding a calling in life, ended with all my hopes for the future dashed.

2007 is therefore just a number for me. It holds no promises and no opportunities and I have no portion in it.


At 01 January, 2007 14:17, Anonymous Charles said...


As a fellow traveler on the Road of Life, I understand your feelings on the prospect of 2007.

I have been there. I understand. I still struggle. For many years I have struggled with depression and anxiety. In fact, I have had several panic attacks – one which landed me in the emergency room for fear of a heart attack. I have struggled with where God wanted me in life, where I was supposed to be. But, then a friend, who has became a mentor, led me from the edge of lifelong depression to a new-found Joy. In this Joy I discovered something profound – something that I would have never believed in a million years. I discovered that I am right where God wants me. Where I am in life is where I am supposed to be, because it is in the Now….the Present where He can touch my heart and sooth my brokenness.

Torsten, I may not know you personally, but I know of you – and your “good people”. What you and Becky did for my wife, before she was my wife, will indebt my gratitude to you both for a lifetime! What could have been an ugly and lonely experience, turned wonderful, because of your kindnesses. That was and is a gift from God!

In closing, my prayer for you in 2007 is this….that the same Joy will be yours. If you don’t mind, I will leave with a few verses from Scripture that have touched my heart and healed longstanding wounds to my soul. I desperately cling to these promises and assurance of God in my life. I pray that they will touch your heart in the same way.

Ephesians 1:4-10 NLT

4 Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. 5 God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure. 6 So we praise God for the glorious grace he has poured out on us who belong to his dear Son. 7 He is so rich in kindness and grace that he purchased our freedom with the blood of his Son and forgave our sins. 8 He has showered his kindness on us, along with all wisdom and understanding. 9 God has now revealed to us his mysterious plan regarding Christ, a plan to fulfill his own good pleasure. 10 And this is the plan: At the right time he will bring everything together under the authority of Christ—everything in heaven and on earth.

Ephesians 3:14-21 NLT

4 When I think of all this, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father, 15 the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth. 16 I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. 17 Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong. 18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. 19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. 20 Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. 21 Glory to him in the church and in Christ Jesus through all generations forever and ever! Amen.

May God richly bless you and Becky this year.

At 01 January, 2007 21:39, Blogger Perez said...

I am so with you on that one...I hate looking forward to something because you never know if you will have the next day....I live for today not tomorrow...My fiance told me he no longer loves me and is going to leave me so I mean I understand somethings about depression...I hope you two make it okay and God is with us all. He know what we need and how to help us. Sometimes it may not seem like it but I know God will take care of me-take care and God Bless-perez

At 03 January, 2007 03:56, Blogger Perez said...

But you never know things can turn around and be better....Lets just hope-Take care and God Bless-perez

At 04 January, 2007 09:43, Blogger Torsten Pedersen said...

Thank you both for your comments.

At 06 January, 2007 01:03, Anonymous Charles said...

Oh, and your thoughts on this:

I am not "baiting" you, but just curious as to your point of view on something very close to home (Denmark).



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