Life on Hold

I have never learned to live life in the present. To be satisfied with life as it is now, to be fully present in what ever happens. I have always been looking forward to my life starting; to do the things I have always wanted to do, to fulfill my calling.

When I was a child I would dream of what I was going to be as an adult.
When I was a student I thought of what I would do when graduated.
When I worked in taxation I dreamed of going back to university to pursue the another course of study and work.
When I was a elder in my church I dreamed of what the church could be like, one day.

Now I feel I come to the end of my dreams and all that is left is the fall.